Where is the beauty of solitude
That the hermits talk about?The virginal maiden of the hills
With her perfumed hairAnd light gait
Her charming smile
With a song on her lips.
Solitude for me
Is a grotesque sea creature-
With bloody fangs
And sagging skin
Body covered in blisters and pus
Groaning a dying cry
Haunting me for life.
I keep wishing to learn to love her,
But she scares me.
I keep trying to fill the room
Between her and me
With people who do not care about me.
What is my fear?
That I will learn a little more
about myself in her company
And not like what I discover?