Bits and pieces is what I have. I have never tried to comprehend the whole of myself at once.I know it will take time. In my journey towards self realization- be a witness and share your thoughts.
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Setting: A cozy urban café. The warm glow of string lights gives the place a homely yet modern atmosphere. Four women sit at a round table, each sipping different beverages. They’ve gathered for their monthly “Reality Check” meetup, where they talk about life beyond what people see on the surface.
Characters:
1.Lila: A glamorous social media influencer. Always on her phone, perfectly styled, and radiating confidence. Beneath the surface, she’s a keen observer of human behavior.
2.Margot: An elementary school teacher, outwardly conservative, polite, and impeccably dressed. She’s grappling with a messy affair that challenges her sense of morality.
3.Tina: A no-nonsense corporate executive, seen as unapproachable and cold. But in truth, she struggles with anxiety and a fear of failure.
4.Ellie: A yoga instructor who seems zen and carefree but is battling imposter syndrome and financial stress.
5.Nina: A bubbly waitress and aspiring actress. Often underestimated, she’s the glue that holds their group together.
Scene One: The Café
(Lila is taking a photo of her latte, arranging the foam art just right. Margot watches disapprovingly but says nothing. Tina glances at her watch impatiently. Ellie sips her herbal tea, lost in thought. Nina serves them cookies before sitting down to join the group.)
Nina: (cheerfully) Okay, ladies. What’s the topic this month? Who’s spilling the tea first?
Lila: (without looking up from her phone) Life hacks for pretending everything’s perfect while your world is on fire?
Margot: (sighs) Could you maybe not take pictures of your coffee for five seconds?
Lila: (finally putting down her phone) Listen, Margot, not all of us can hide behind chalkboards and parent-teacher conferences. Some of us must sell perfection to pay rent.
Ellie: (quietly) Selling perfection. That’s ironic. Isn’t it exhausting?
Lila: (shrugs) Maybe. But you’d be surprised what you can learn about people when you’re pretending to be what they want to see. Like that guy in the corner—he’s smiling at his laptop, but he’s stressed. Probably answering emails he doesn’t want to send.
Tina: (intrigued) Wait, how do you know that?
Lila: (smirks) Psychology 101. People-watching is my side hustle.
Nina: (laughing) Of course it is. Okay, Margot. Your turn. What’s new in teacher-land? Still molding young minds?
Margot: (hesitant) Sure. Let’s call it that.
Lila: (eyebrows raised) Ooh, what’s that tone? Spill.
Margot: (flustered) Fine. I…might be involved with someone at school.
The scene where Harry first successfully conjures a fully-formed Patronus is personally very significant for me. It is a powerful metaphor for resilience, self-belief, and overcoming despair. Let’s break this down:
Overcoming Fear and Despair: Dementors represent depression, fear, and the overwhelming weight of negative emotions. Harry's ability to summon a Patronus—a manifestation of positive emotions and memories—symbolizes the triumph of hope and positivity over darkness. This reflects the importance of finding inner strength and positivity to combat mental struggles.
The Role of Support Systems: While Harry ultimately casts the Patronus himself, Hermione and Sirius's presence emphasizes the value of support systems in moments of vulnerability. Mental health often benefits from having friends, family, or mentors to encourage and stand by someone in their struggles.
Self-Efficacy and Growth: Harry initially doubts his ability to create a Patronus. However, he realizes his potential when he sees his "future self" cast the spell (thanks to the time-turner sequence). This moment is about self-belief—a critical element in mental health recovery. It highlights that believing in one’s capacity to succeed is transformative.
Anchoring in Positive Memories: The Patronus charm focuses on a profoundly positive memory, underscoring the importance of holding onto joyful or meaningful experiences, even in the face of overwhelming negativity. This aligns with techniques like gratitude practice or mindfulness in modern mental health care.
In summary, Harry's ability to conjure a Patronus in this scene is not just a magical feat but a reflection of personal empowerment, resilience, and the mental strength needed to face inner demons.
Personal note
I was trying to think of a happy memory in case I need to conjure a patronus if I am attacked by dementors. My brain ran through my memory archive for a few seconds but paused on the moment in 2000 my father carried me in his arms after my ICSE results. He was so happy that I had done so well. He is not a very expressive man, and his validation meant a lot. Still means a lot. Another time I saw him so happy was when I took my parents to watch a show in Lido, Paris for my birthday in 2017.
If you understand this, you will understand a lot about me. I owe it to my parents to live a good, happy life. And anyone who doesn’t support me in this or disrupts that happiness deliberately is not my friend.
I am driven by my mom’s prayer,” একটা বাচ্চা তো অন্তত ভালো থাকুক " I feel the weight of those words on me every day. I don’t take my responsibility towards my happiness lightly and protect it fiercely. That’s why you will see me chasing it so aggressively and trying to share it with others. As simple as that!
अपने लिये जिये तो क्या जिये - तू जी ,ऐ दिल, ज़माने के लिये
I am feeling very accomplished today. We raised 1,84,743 INR for flood relief in Tripura. By "we", I mean Tripurites living in the Bay Area, California, who often come together to celebrate Saraswati Pujo or occasionally enjoy a summer picnic under the banner "TRIPTI, Bay Area."
Though it wasn't the biggest fundraiser, it was one of the fastest I ever witnessed. My brothers and sisters from Tripura donated generously to raise the amount in just a few days.
Arranged alphabetically, the donors are-
Abhijit Datta
Aditi Sengupta
Alokparna Deb
Anindita Bhattacharya
Anindita Debnath
Aparna Ganguly
Arijit Das
Arunava Majumdar
Debarshi Kar
Dhrishni Chakraborti
Jishnu Bhattacharjee
Joyasree Debbarma
Mandakranta Deb
Pamela Das
Partha Ghosh
Rajat Naha
Rajib Deb
Ratan Banik
Saikat Saha
Sangram Ganguly
Santanu Bhattacharya
Saradindu Debnath
Sauravi Bhoumik
Suchayita Bhattacharjee
Sudipa Bhattacharya
Suman Chandra Shil
Tanuka Bhattacharjee
Tirtha Bhattacharjee
Vaishali Chaudhuri
It has been donated to Lions Club of Agartala ANISH, and we hope it will help some of the families affected by the recent floods.
A Lesson in Geography
Tripura, the state I was born in, is a tiny state in northeast India.
Trivia: The 19 communities are - Tripuri, Riang, Jamatia, Noatia, Uchai, Chakma, Mog, Lushai, Kuki, Halam, Munda, Kaur, Orang, Santal, Bhil, Bhutia, Chaimal, Garo, Khasia, and Lepcha.
Despite being a culturally rich and diverse region, the national media organizations often allocate fewer resources to cover Northeast India, preferring to focus on regions with larger audiences and more perceived importance to the national narrative. The Northeast is seen as peripheral in terms of political and economic influence within India. This perception leads to less media coverage than other regions seen as more central to the nation’s political and economic life.
For example, a tiny state like Tripura has only two Members of Parliament in the Lok Sabha.
So, the onus is on the state's people to inform the world of the correct narrative of a crisis situation and seek remedy.
The Problem
Severe floods in Northeast India have caused widespread damage and disruption across the states. Triggered by heavy monsoon rains, the flooding affected multiple districts, displacing thousands of residents and submerging large areas. (News article: Assam Floods, AP News)
Impact on Communities
Entire communities have been forced to evacuate as rivers overflowed their banks, flooding homes, farmlands, and infrastructure. Low-lying areas have been the hardest hit, with many villages cut off due to submerged roads and collapsed bridges. The state's capital, Agartala, also experienced significant waterlogging, complicating relief efforts and daily life.
Relief and Rescue Operations
The state governments and the National Disaster Response Force (NDRF) have been actively involved in relief and rescue operations. Emergency shelters have been set up to accommodate those displaced by the floods, and efforts are underway to provide food, clean drinking water, and medical aid to affected populations. Helicopters and boats have been deployed to rescue stranded people and deliver essential supplies to isolated areas.
Agricultural and Economic Losses
The flooding has dealt a severe blow to agriculture, with vast paddy fields and other crops destroyed. This is expected to significantly impact farmers' livelihoods and could lead to food shortages in the coming months. The economic losses extend beyond agriculture, as businesses, particularly in rural areas, have suffered damage to property and inventory.
Health Concerns
The floodwaters have raised concerns about waterborne diseases, as sanitation facilities have been compromised in many areas. The state health department is on high alert, working to prevent outbreaks of diseases like cholera and dengue by distributing medicines and promoting awareness about hygiene practices.
Response and Future Challenges
The government has announced financial assistance for those affected by the floods, but the path to recovery will be long and challenging. The situation highlights the need for better flood management and infrastructure development in the state to mitigate the future effects of such natural disasters.
As the rains continue, the immediate focus remains on relief efforts, but long-term solutions will be crucial to protect northeast communities from future flooding
Here are some steps you can take to organize and execute a fundraising campaign:
1. Identify Needs
Understand the specific needs of the affected communities. In the flood-affected areas of Tripura, food, shelter, medical aid, and rebuilding infrastructure were provided.
2. Partner with Organizations
Collaborate with local NGOs, charities, or government agencies already involved in relief efforts to ensure your fundraising efforts are effective and well-coordinated. In this case, we decided to collaborate with Lions Club of Agartala ANISH because the Secretary, Biswajit Banik, is a former classmate from Holy Cross School, Agartala. And I could vouch for him personally and his accountability for his actions.
3. Create a Campaign
Develop a compelling narrative around the cause, highlighting the impact of the floods and emphasizing the situation's urgency. Please share videos and images with the potential donors so they can gauge the situation for themselves. For example, this YouTube short
4. Utilize Multiple Platforms
Use online crowdfunding platforms, social media, and traditional media channels to reach a broader audience and attract donations. Personal appeal works best in case of a humanitarian crisis.
5. Organize Events
Host fundraising events such as charity drives, benefit concerts, or auctions to raise funds and increase community involvement. In the end, most people want to help, but few know how. Give them options. And a clear process.
6. Transparency
Ensure transparency in how donations will be utilized and provide regular updates on the progress of relief efforts to donors. It is one of the most crucial things because people don't want to donate to organizations without accountability.
7. Long-term Support
Consider sustainable support beyond immediate relief, such as rebuilding infrastructure or providing livelihood support to help communities recover. For example, clean drinking water would become an issue in flood-affected areas, so the charities can volunteer to build hand pumps or tubewells that will help to provide fresh water,
You can make a significant impact by mobilizing resources effectively and engaging the community.
Lompoc, pronounced /ˈlɒmpoʊk/ LOM-poke, is a city in Santa Barbara County on California's Central Coast. As of July 2021, the city had a population of 43,834. About half of Santa Barbara, which was 87,533 in the census of 2022. Santa Barbara itself is considered a small town. Compare it to the population of San Francisco 808,437 (2022)or San Jose 971,233 (2022)
For a visual comparison, here is a horizontal graph for you
History
The area has a rich history, with the Chumash people inhabiting it for thousands of years. They named the area "lumpo'o̥," which translates to "in the cheeks" in the local Purisimeño language. The Spanish later renamed it Lompoco after Fermín de Lasuén established Misión La Purísima in 1787. In 1837, the land became part of the Rancho Lompoc land grant under Mexican rule. After the U.S. took control of California, several settlers acquired land in the Lompoc Valley, including William Welles Hollister. Hollister sold the land surrounding the mission to the Lompoc Valley Land Company, which established a temperance colony. Lompoc was officially incorporated as a city in 1888.
Today, Lompoc is often seen as a military town due to its proximity to Vandenberg Space Force Base.
The tiny, sleepy town has numerous vibrant, large-scale murals adorning the walls of buildings throughout its downtown area. These murals depict various themes, from historical events, cultural heritage, and community pride to natural landscapes, local flora, and fauna. The Lompoc Mural Society has played a significant role in commissioning and preserving these artworks, contributing to the city's identity and attracting visitors interested in public art and cultural exploration.
I learned about this charming little town while searching for options to entertain my in-laws near Santa Barbara. I love murals. My MIL enjoys both flowers and art. So, I felt it would be a unique experience we both would enjoy.
Unfortunately, the flowers grown commercially in the fields peaked at the end of June this year. I found a pamphlet for the Lompoc Flower Festival that happened on June 20-23, 2024. The Festival featured carnival rides and games, arts and craft exhibitors, food booths, and commercial vendors - all fun things. But we were a tad late. Here is a glimpse of what we saw-
Delphinium growing in the flower fields for commercial use.
It is next to a medium-security federal prison. The prisoners are known to have been involved in agricultural work historically, though I could not find any current data on it. They are given vocational training in hydroponics and construction
This mural interested me because octopuses are often considered "aliens" due to their unique and otherworldly characteristics, which set them apart from most other life forms on Earth.
(If you are interested, click here to read why they are thought of this way.)
Of course, I had to take a picture of the mural celebrating the 50th anniversary of the Landsat satellite program, which consists of a series of Earth-observing satellite missions, jointly managed by NASA and the U.S. Geological Survey (USGS). My husband was a part of the Landsat science team during his stint at NASA Ames.
A field of canna lilies
I absolutely loved this flora and fauna of Lompoc valley mural
There were some fun ones like this T-Rex
And some historic ones like this
A little unusual in the corner here
But the one that made me pause the most was this one, which is obviously about a serviceman who had died in the field.
A United States flag is provided to drape the casket or accompany the urn of a deceased Veteran who served honorably in the U.S. Armed Forces. It is furnished to honor the memory of a Veteran's military service to their country.
This is an addendum to the post The murals of Lompoc to explain the concept behind a mural.
Octopuses are often considered "alien" due to their unique and otherworldly characteristics, which set them apart from most other life forms on Earth. Here are some reasons why they are thought of this way:
1. Unusual Anatomy
Eight Arms and Suckers: Octopuses have eight flexible arms lined with suckers that can taste and feel, which is unlike the limbs of most terrestrial animals.
Three Hearts and Blue Blood: They have three hearts and copper-based blood, which is blue, a stark contrast to the red, iron-based blood of most other animals.
Soft, Boneless Body: Their bodies lack bones, allowing them to squeeze through incredibly tight spaces.
2. Incredible Intelligence
Problem-Solving Skills: Octopuses exhibit remarkable problem-solving abilities, such as escaping from tanks, opening jars, and using tools, which is rare for invertebrates.
Complex Nervous System: They have a highly complex nervous system, with most of their neurons located in their arms, enabling them to perform complex tasks independently.
3. Camouflage and Color Change
Chromatophores: Octopuses can change their color and texture almost instantly to blend in with their surroundings or communicate, a trait not found in many animals and one that seems almost magical.
Mimicry: Some species can mimic the appearance and behavior of other animals to avoid predators.
4. Unusual Reproduction
Mating Rituals: Their mating process is unique, with the male using a specialized arm to transfer sperm to the female. After mating, many species exhibit extreme behaviors like the female guarding her eggs until she dies.
Short Lifespan: Despite their intelligence, octopuses have relatively short lifespans, often only living for a few years.
5. Ancient Lineage
Evolutionary History: Octopuses have an ancient lineage, with ancestors dating back hundreds of millions of years. This long evolutionary history, combined with their unique features, makes them seem like creatures from another time—or even another world.
6. Lack of Relatives
Unique Evolution: They are mollusks, but they are vastly different from their close relatives, such as snails and clams. Their distinct evolutionary path gives them a mysterious and alien-like quality.
All these factors contribute to the perception of octopuses as alien-like beings, making them a subject of fascination and mystery in science and popular culture.
Some things in life transform you in ways that you never imagined. Some time in March, I had auditioned for a role in Kittonkhola (while still rehearsing for Chini, my stage debut, directed by Raj Ray, founder of Yatraa).
I received an email from BAAT saying that I had been selected, and the kickoff meeting for the entire cast was scheduled for March 8th at 9 pm PST online on Google Meet with Partha Pratim Deb (PPD) and his wife Rupa Deb from Kolkata. The idea was that we would be cast via virtual meetings, read our lines online once a week with Partha Da and Rupa di (on Thursdays), rehearse in person (on Fridays), and then, when PPD arrived, we would have daily rehearsals from May 9th to the day of the show. (Memorial weekend- May 25 and 26 at Spangenberg Theatre, Palo Alto)
It would be difficult, and I was rethinking before committing to such a rigorous rehearsal schedule. There were a lot of unknowns-
How long would the daily rehearsals be,
How far was the location for the rehearsal going to be, and
Was my character duration on stage worth the effort I would put in?
I got all my answers in due time.
The original "Kittonkhola" is a legendary drama written by the renowned playwright Selim Al Deen (সেলিম আল দীন), set in rural Bangladesh, and delves deep into the duality of joyous rural cultures and life’s harsh realities. As homework, I decided to watch a movie adaptation and found that the script we were reading lines from was a lot different from the movie storyline.
PPD adapted the script and made some adjustments to accommodate actors like me into the script. For example, there is no love triangle between Shonai (played by PPD), Banashree Bala (played by Rupa Deb), and Dalimon (played by Pinka Di) and there was no one named Anandi Amma (my character) in the original script either. What struck me most was how accurately PPD had cast each character just by meeting us online.
Scenes from the May 25 Performance
My first day of rehearsal with PPD
The eagle had landed, and we were all excited to meet him. I had offered my house as the rehearsal location, and there were both pros and cons. The pros were that I could be in the comfort of my house and act as the occasional host, even though everyone took turns bringing in dinner and helping clean up later. The cons were that we had to clean up every day after rehearsals, and it was no small offering. My husband Sangram seemed more excited than me, ensuring everyone felt at home.
Celebrating Anindya Da's birthday after rehearsal
I remember feeling so good 😊
I realized that I was experiencing a great bonding exercise. I have made friends for life, and I will do everything possible to help them out if needed. Even now, when I chance upon them, I feel good to see them. We take a lot of goofy "Kittonkhola" cast pictures at every social event, be it the 10th Anniversary of Dishari Public Library or Bay Area Band Fest- there are always familiar faces to greet and hug you.
Some of the amazingly talented people I met during Kittonkhola
So, yes, the answer to my question- was it worth reducing your social life to zero and committing to rehearsing for the plays from 7 to 11 pm on weekdays, having a full-time job, and then rehearsing again from 10 am to 6 pm on weekends? Totally.
This has also allowed me to push myself and be surprised by what I am capable of both physically and mentally.
The biggest takeaway was probably from the June 1 and 2 workshops with Partha Da and Rupa Di. We learned a folk song, did improv acting, and even developed a skit called "The Merchant of Venice of Bay Area"- a modern-day take on the Shakespearean version. I lost my marbles almost when I got to redo the courtroom scene. We had that in the syllabus for ICSE English Literature when I graduated in my Sophomore year. And this time, I got to play Portia instead of Antonio. ;)
Sometimes, you have to wait 24 years to play your dream role.
Returning to the workshop, two fun-filled days were an extension of my learning experience. But what stayed with me were the lines both Partha Da and Rupa di hammered into our brains- loosely translated -
"Theater is an aesthetic (নান্দনিক) art
Your body is a part of that aesthetic. How you present yourself on stage will influence your audience.
If you are overweight, slow to move, and low on energy, your audience will sense that too and you will fail to entertain them to the fullest."
Without fat-shaming, they managed to tell us why you should not let yourself go.
I am lazy, and I always have more potential than kinetic energy. But I decided to change that. They are several years our senior, but the way they move with energy, how they started rehearsing the very day they landed in San Francisco after traveling long hours of international flights from Kolkata, and how they always impressed us by being prime examples of vitality themselves is what I will remember the most about my "Kittonkhola" experience.
Yes, I learned more about acting, voice projection, and scales. But most importantly, I learned to take better care of myself—so much so that my boss noticed my visible change in energy level. I do feel better, and I hope I will continue this growth. Movement is life.
