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Wednesday, January 11, 2006

Being "me"

It's like waking up to a new dawn after a beautiful dream..No regrets.No complaints.
Just a feel good feeling after it's over...& the golden rays of sun kissing your eyes-reluctant to wake up..

I knew it was too good to last too long...
I always knew I 'm too independent to be in a relation...& I loved him to much to be myself...

If you are being rational and being in love-you are not in love at all...

I could have become amorphous in his hands & let him mould me..
I could have been somebody else..

But never before have I felt a stronger urge to be "me"

What life holds ahead-I do not know.
Somewhere while treading on untreaded path -somehow while trying to invent my destiny I might come across him again-waiting for me..

But until then I can't afford the luxury of romance-this is my relation-& I'm not going to disgrace it by being a nobody.

I'll wait...till I"ve become "ME"

24 comments:

Aparna Kar said...

Sometimes..I don't make sense to myself..but I guess it's this overpowering necessity to let out what is inside me..in words ..that I am addicted to...

pdey said...

that self-referential comment says it all..cheers :)

zoxcleb said...

what a life u lead! just amazing...

ganty said...

sometimes short posts are fraught with meaning
this is one of them

Aparna Kar said...

@pdey
:)

Aparna Kar said...

@zoxcleb
LOl.....but y?

zoxcleb said...

to be able to say things like this... with such deep significane to them.

and to do so regularly... takes a lot of courage.

Aparna Kar said...

@zoxcleb
n with the peril of being misunderstood... I guess..tht's the scariest part..

Aparna Kar said...

@ganty
Thx :)

zoxcleb said...

scary, yes; but also interesting in the sense that u see how others see the same events.

who knows, it could open ur eyes to a whole new perspective.

Aparna Kar said...

@zoxcleb
That is my endeavour...

zoxcleb said...

hmmm....
shall try to be of more use then.

Siddhartha rai said...

waiting is hoofs of time........

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Manish Chauhan said...

Moments that slide by unknowingly have the power in them to mould us into sth else...

Aparna Kar said...

@Siddhartha
Deleted a comment?

Aparna Kar said...

@zoxcleb
Thanks :)

Aparna Kar said...

@Manish
True..very true..

Siddhartha rai said...

same comment got posted twice.

xineohp said...

Nice place you've got here :)

Aparna Kar said...

@Xineohp
Thx...:)

Shashi Rajasekaran said...

lovely words pal..could even call it a sermon..to be in love with ypu that some one must be a some body..

Aparna Kar said...

@Shashi
yes..it works both ways..I might sound too worldly..but honestly..I can't be in love with a non-entity...

Aparna Kar said...

If I am merciless to myself..I can be so to anybody...