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Tuesday, November 27, 2007

Gaining resilience

Today, I had gone to meet my Program Director Dr. William Koehler to discuss which courses I'd be taking up next semester. He observed: "You have a marketing personality. Accountants are not so lively" and winked. Honestly, Financial Accounting is not really one of my favorites. I love the subject, but not the class which is lecture-based owing to its theoretical content, and for that reason, is highly somniferous.

I might narrow down to Economics, Marketing Management, Business and its Environment and/or a class in Fund-raising. The last one was specially recommended by him after he saw me attending an info session on fund-raising and non-profit organizations a fortnight ago.

I was interested 'cause of the purpose associated with non-profits. In fact, the Mgt650 project of Organizational Analysis ( The basics of Strategic consulting. My most favorite class - mentioning it for the nth time I guess) is on an organization working for community inclusion of the physically disabled.

One thing I learned at the session was that you can do well by doing good too. Some of the salaries cited were brow-raising. But then, nothing comes easy. You have to work for insane hours for an event. Not that I am scared to work. I like the high I get from sleepless nights. But I fear the lull that follows it.

I still remember the day I kept sitting on campus grounds after the cultural fest got over in my first year of undegrad. So much preparation had gone into it. And so much excitement was associated with it. Those three days had my adrenaline pumping like crazy. I met new people, made new friends and my life changed to never be the same again.

So, getting back to it. I don't fear stress. But the leisure to realize that I am not busy enough. I asked Bill if I should take 4 courses instead of the 3 courses usually taken by a full time student. He asked me not to overexert myself. The classes need to be well paced too. I might apply for GA, I have not decided yet. But my primary concern right now is my internship next summer. Hmm. Lots on my table. Not a wonder that I have begin to care less and less about more and more now. To be truthful, I don't think I can afford redundancy in any form. Sorry if I ranted about myself. But this is something important to ME and I think I deserve a chunk of this space even at the cost of boring my readers. :D

Was feeling too tired to log onto my private blog and post it there.

Thanks for listening. :)

P.S I forgot to mention the incident that gave the post its title. After my team meeting yesterday , I had gone to Shaw's to get some grocery done. On my way back, I saw a kid pushing a heap of maple leaves with his feet - just for the fun of it. His ability to create happiness out of all most nothing is something intrinsic to children, which usually fades out with time.( I used to turn a chair upside down and pretend it is my space station. Or transform my bed into a stage and row up my chairs asking my friends to be an audience *always the limelight hogger :D * )

I asked the kid, "Is it fun?" He shied away at first but then nodded his head and said "Yeah. It is" Without a second thought, I leaped into those leaves, with grocery bags et al and said "It sure feels good." There was a chap passing by, probably wondering why an adult woman is jumping onto a heap of leaves. But who cares? Why should I stop being myself?

20 comments:

Abhinav said...

Nice read. Thanks for sharing ;-)

candid diary said...
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candid diary said...

I did not get bored.
I am all ears :D

Aparna Kar said...

@Abhinav
:) Added a P.S. That's more like me :) I usually keep the rants about my career and stuff for my private blog :D

Aparna Kar said...

@candid
Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayiiiiiiiiiiiiiii
Hee hee. Never trust someone else with your ears. Felt like doing what I used to do as a kid, if u remember :D

anon said...

i love piles of leaves... its fun...
i love the crunch they make, i love the fleeting movements they make in the breeze...

i love too much.

FireWhisky said...

tat ws a relly nice read... n abt the p.s... i used 2 think twice b4 jumping into the rain with my neighbors kids... i dnt nemr... i figure its nvr 2 late 2 b a child

Sam said...

heya.... u gotta ramble..a dn frankly i liked it....
btw, u really jumped into teh pile of leaves?? cool... wish i cud do that!!! :)

Da Rodent said...

:-O volunteering to do 4 courses instead of 3?

backpakker said...

Used to think like that myself..but now I know better

candid diary said...

Aha! The photograph could have entered the Fall Foliage Weekly Assignment photography contest. Though the contest is over you may see this link.

Aparna Kar said...

@anon
"i love too much". I am sure most of us has felt it at some point of our lives, somewhere. But then, you should love because it gives you happiness, not 'cause u expect reciprocation. Specially when u r loving things. Loving people have become more and more difficult now a days. But yesterday, I realized that I'd be missing my Mgt 650 Prof next sem. Surprised me pleasantly, someone who thinks she has jaded and is vacuous of emotions presently. :) Life never ceases to surprise. Wait for the moment when you feel that even all the love in your heart is not enough and you want to give more..

Aparna Kar said...

.. to something.. anything.. a person, a purpose, an event.. Maybe you are not looking hard enough :)

Aparna Kar said...

@FireWhisky
Never too late.
"May I never grow too old to chase a butterfly or too tired to appreciate the brilliance of its wings" :)

Aparna Kar said...

@Sam
Just do it! (what a pity Nike stole it from me :D )

Aparna Kar said...

@Da Rodent
Yeah I know. Some people are weird :D

Aparna Kar said...

@backpakker
Umm.. maybe I know what you mean here. There can be a lot of social constraints when you grow up. I might be a sober, level headed woman in the presence of my elders/colleagues/peers. But I'd prefer to be a pampered kid in front of my Mom and still need kisses to wake up from sleep. Have at least one place in this world where you can be yourself. If your companion understands that facet of yours, you are more than just lucky. :)

Sam said...

yeah.. fat chance of doing dat here at pune.. lolzz... need i remind u hjow thigs r here???
btw, nice pic... great eyes... simply gr8... just the ideal stuff to sketch!!

Sam said...

But then, you should love because it gives you happiness, not 'cause u expect reciprocation. &
Life never ceases to surprise. Wait for the moment when you feel that even all the love in your heart is not enough and you want to give more..

Beautiful lines.... and definitely food for thought!!

Abhinav said...

Could not resist adding this (somebody on ryze set me up with this one):-
If I love you, what business is it of yours? ---Goethe

:-)